Friday, 16 July 2010

Just Had A Near-Death Experience



Yeah I nearly fell off my roof... A photo of Merlin was on my attic window sill and fell out the window so I went out after it, slid down the roof, hit the wall at the bottom and nearly went over it. He better know I love him, I'm scared of heights and risked my life for his picture ¬_¬ Wow, finding it a tad hard to breathe right now.

-Pause-

Ok, feeling better, so... yeah, umm, Kie's present is done and I had a reaaaally nice walk today :) I went up on to the East Hill with Dylan and he had great fun chasing Magpies, I'm not sure if that's bad luck :S Well... Probably is for the magpies =/

Anyway, Merlin's back home tomorrow =] so that's really good but he won't be getting back until late, we're having an us day on Sunday though. Missed that boy.

Oh and Marcia [Merlin's Grandmother] swore :O she said bastard, naughty, naughty

Thursday, 15 July 2010

A Day Spent _______ (Loser)


The picture is huge  slabs made out of sweets, it's completely unrelated but it looks cool and it's giving me tooth ache to look at =]

I'm really excited, very nearly finished Kieran's present, I just need to pick up an extra few things tomorrow =] I've spent all day playing around with it and getting it right and I actually like it which is very weird for me. What's also strange is how organised I've been, his birthday is over a week away and I'm pretty much done, so yeah... It's good.

And now I don't know what to write about, I really didn't do much else today...

Bitchy Wolf-Boys and Sparkly, Gay Vampires


This morning I had a orthodontist appointment up in Eastbourne, and I had to have moulds taken, again. To do that they basically put cement on your teeth and take it off when it's partially hardened. Having it in your mouth makes you choke and it burns your tongue, having two done for top and bottom is bad enough but the very clever dentist got the first one wrong and left it too long so it had hardened on my teeth, when she got it off it felt like they were coming out. Owww.

I also had my own personal drama on the way there, in the shopping centre their was a little old lady who was sitting on a bench and had basically slumped forwards and wouldn't wake up when I tried to ask if she was OK, my first ever 999 call. She was OK though, the paramedics said her blood sugar had dropped and she'd passed out. After that on the bus we had a really unpleasant trip, a little girl with her mum started being sick everywhere, that bus stuuuuuuunk, puke in a hot bus is not good.

Then in the evening we went to see Eclipse, but tickets were all sold out for the first one and we had to hang around in the rain for an hour. Weatherspoons hot chocolate was good though and being there helped warm up Katie and Jess who'd thought it was a good idea to go up onto the west hill to watch the thunderstorm and were surprised at how wet they'd got.

Eclipse was really good, Edward and Jacob are seriously bitchy with each other and Bella's stooooopid, it was a lot better than the first one anyway, no sparkly vampires =] Although the people in front of us didn't appreciate Siobhan's commentary, I think the girl was very upset that she couldn't soley focus on Robbie.

Oh, and just in case you ever go on a diet, stay away from Molly, she's not good for it =p

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

Today I Went Outside =O



Today's been good, I went for a walk, have two very pretty tops and I've also decided that shopping with MoMo is made of good =] I also have contact lenses again, hopefully my eyes won't fight with these ones, they're more expensive though, typically. The weather's been icky, very very humid (oo that's stereotypical, a british person talking about the weather,) a day for shorts I felt though everyone still seemed to be wrapped up in hoodies and jeans after the rain. Never mind.

I kind of feel like I should explain the randomly depressing poem, stumble gave me a happy page full of happy statistics and happy people in happy scenes in happy photographs. It was all very uplifting. In fact it was too uplifting, hearing about poverty, AIDs, wars and natural disasters just made my face ache from smiling, I had to get it out somehow.

Looking forward to tomorrow, going to see a guilty pleasure movie, I won't tell you which one -sparkle vampire sparkle- and me and Tasha are going to have dinner in McDonalds, because we're classy, and, apparently, unhealthy and immoral. It was her venue choice ¬_¬ So... yeah, funtimes. Over and out =]

A Happy Poem =]


 The photo shows those injured in the tsunami who were too poor to afford other forms of transport out of the disaster area.



The news tells us stories of faraway lands; bombs, crime and wars,
Passively, in flat voices, speak of people controlled by force.
Only, do they seem to react, if the dead happen to share,
Our citizenship or colour of skin; real emotion’s rare.
As tides swept across foreign beaches our concern was misplaced,
We look for our own but help for others is sent with little haste.
Children are left starving abroad whilst ours’ grow fatter on sweets,
Dying parents mean children are forced to stand on unsteady feet.
Orphans are snatched from their hell only as a publicity stunt,
Celebs wanting our love and praise, it’s immoral, to be blunt.
I don’t want any children; I just don’t think that that would be right,
Leaving them to stand in a world with our battles left to fight.
We’ve caused too many problems that we really can’t seem to sort,
War, debt, overpopulation, we still don’t do what we ought.
It seems quite likely now that we’ve left a solution too late,
The damage we’ve done has confirmed our little planet’s fate.
The next generation’s children are innocent of our crimes,
With teenage pregnancy rising they’re the product of these times.
I can’t be a part of adding to the problems we must bare,
Too many people feel nothing, we all need to start to care.

Wow that was a little deep, I think I'm coming down with something. Realism, perhaps. How sad.

Monday, 12 July 2010

A Day Spent With My Laptop (Loser)



Today's been quiet, Merlin's still in the lake district, it's weird for him not to be here, I miss him a lot. His photos are going to be good though, it's meant to be really pretty in the area they're staying in, they're going to be climbing the biggest mountain in England.

Wow I don't really have much to say... that's what I get for not doing anything all day.. hmm

We're camping on Saturday? Could talk about that, I suppose... Um... it's 5th camping and hopefully it's going to be really fun.
3rd camping was very bad. I went straight from eastbourne to this field near filsham, we had to walk through a bog and my ballet flats went into the mud and got stuck and ruined so I had to wear Holly's conz that looked ridiculous on me. That was minor compared to what happened after that. I don't like bees. Holly's allergic and Mollywog, if she liked them then she doesn't now, got stung right near her eye. After that Merly had a weird depressed moment and refused to speak to anyone, instead curled up in his happy area. I guess I met Jess and Alex so that's good, just in general not a great trip.
4th camping three weeks ago was much better, some drama because Isaac's jacket got burned by some nibbler idiot and Merlin disappeared, but I had a nice walk with Kie, met Louisa and had some reaaaally nice food. Nomnomnom =]
So...yeahhhh hopefully weather's gonna be good and we can have a night where we're not absolutely freezing, and fingers crossed the ranger guy is as nice this time as he was last time.


Um... work... that's boring normally, but next week I'm working a 6 day week and I'm gonna get about £200 :D

OK, I think I've deff run out of babble now, enjoy a nice picture of jellybabies ^

The Girl In The Water


Photo belongs to dreamertechie of deviantart
The grass crumpled beneath me as I lay down, preserving my imprint on the riverbank. This area was free, public land, and because of this, whilst it had been kept clean, the grass had been left to grow long. I plucked a daisy that was growing beside my arm and turned the stem round and round between my fingertips, watching as the flower head spun hypnotically. Glancing down at the river below me I smiled, the steel gray water moved lazily passed,so slowly you could barely see the movement except when it tugged at the grass blades which had slumped forwards from the bank into its depths. The sun shone brightly down on us, as it hit the river it seemed to be absorbed, sparkling back at me from under the surface.
In the water my reflection stared back at me, gray like the water, her eyes were framed by dark lashes, they seemed to sink into mine, probing. Her expression was challenging, questioning, and didn't seem to match the look on my own face. Testing, I raised my lips into a smile and, whilst my reflection also smiled it seemed disjointed, fake and wider than my own. Shaking my head, I put it down to a trick of the light and instead watched the sunbeams sparkling inside the river.
My reflection was moving. I was unaware of moving my arm but her's definitely was, it seemed to be reaching up towards the surface of the water, a finger extended, as if trying to touch the sparkling light. As I watched her fingetip grew closer and closer until, finally, it broke the surface of the water, a small pink-white finger, protruding only an inch or so out of the river. The girl in the water looked at me expectantly and beckoned, the rest of her hand emerged and reached for mine. Cautiously, I reached out to grasp her hand but as I did she lowered hers back into the water, confused I met her eyes then followed the path of her hand, reaching down into the water.
I gasped in shock. The gray water was ice-cold, where it should have been warmed by the summer sun, I pulled my hand back as a reflex but something in the water had hold of it, I tugged desperately, panic rising and speeding my heartbeat. I felt sick and faint, dizziness making my head swim and slump forwards, I briefly gave up fighting to free my arm, trying to stop the sickness from rising. My toes were tingling, I forced myself to look down at them and felt instantly sick again. They were gray. Not just my skin but my shoes too and it was creeping up my leg, the tingling following a path to my torso, robbing it of colour as well. Desperately I pulled back on my arm, I gained maybe an inch but my hand was stuck fast. The colour was draining out of my body, stolen by the water which was getting bluer and bluer by the second. My reflection grinned at me as her own shoes began to be coloured in, as if my an artist's paintbrush. Her dress was painted red, to match her shoes and strands of brown streaked her gray hair. The more of me began tingling the more she smiled and gained in colour, a sense of defeat washed over me and I collapsed back into my indent in the grass, panting hard from the exertion of my fight.
Finally, after what seemed an age, the tingling faded; I propped myself up on an elbow, staring into the water. The girl looked back at me, smirking, and seemed to get up from the position I was in and turned her back, walking forwards and sinking into the depths of the baby blue river. I stared at my hands, silent tears rolling down my cheeks. The skin was ashen, I looked like a corpse, even the bracelet I was wearing had been coloured gray. I stood up, backing away in horror as I turned to run. My fast footsteps were muffled by the thick grass as I ran as far as I could from the river and the village where I'd lived for so long. My hearing was dominated by the heavy pounding in my ears and my hurried breathing, I didn't hear the splash of water behind me.

A girl, thin and shivering, climbed slowly out of the river water, which began fading to gray, her red dress clung to her body, she stood, wobbling on unsteady feet. Eventually she stood steady and shook her body from side to side, water droplets flying from her clothes and hair, each drop glittered with every colour of the rainbow. At her feet a puddle of the same colours was forming. As she grew more confident with her balance she took a few unsteady steps, stumbling like a toddler, before she could walk comfortably, slowly towards town, a village where she knew there was a newly vacant house. A house where she'd fit right in, unnoticed by the neighbors. As she walked from the river another girl, a lot younger was coming up the path towards it, they passed each other without meeting eyes or acknowledging their presence. The young girl had a bucket and went towards the stream, leaning to the side with the metal buckets weight, she dipped it in, filling it to the brim before she raised it again and leant forward to splash her face and wash her hands. As her fingers touched the water her eyes widened and she screamed, loud enough to bring the villagers running. By then it was too late, the steel gray water sparkled, in the river and in the bucket, but the girl was gone.

Sunday, 11 July 2010

Dreamworld

This morning my alarm is silent, eyes flutter open to the gentle light,
The warmth of the bedclothes enfolds me, shrouds my sleeping mind.
I let it wander, crossing from thinking to dreaming, with eyes still open.
I think, imagine; birds fly beside me, on the same wind, we soar high.
The country dozes, resting bodies below, our minds join together as one,
Think, imagine; we create creatures, other bodies, whole worlds. Unique.
I turn easily, weightless, spinning off into the orange-red sky, gold glow,
Our world is vast, our settlements and inhabitants scattered across,
Birds fly high on glittering wings, animals dance across the open plains.


Amongst them, though, something is missing, tugging at me, insistent,
With reluctance I follow it, guided gently upwards, into the soft light.
The other minds hang back, no longer following my movements, confused.
The light grows brighter, stronger, warm on my face and still I'm led on.
My vision white, like my head had broken through the water of a pool,
The white cleared away, blinking fast until my bedroom became clearer.
Still the tugging feeling remained, a warm hand on mine, tugging, insistent.
I turned to you, your face bathed in the gold glow of my dreamworld,
Smile goes from you to me, infectious. I'm pulled close, the tugging fades.
Your body is warm against mine, a hand cups my cheek, gently stroking,
Arms wrap round, we can't get closer; bodies, minds join together, as one.


Your lips touch mine, soft and gentle, our eyes close, shutting out the world,
Together we dance, hands entwined, leading each other on, bathed in light.
Your mind glows a soft baby blue, tranquil and beautiful, inside and out,
Reflecting the beauty of your body, your mind has the same grace.
You focus on our world, as yet untouched, a blank canvas for your paint,
Our minds fly, creating as we move, a sea so pure we could sea the bottom,
At its banks we scatter reeds, long grasses, flowers of delicate petals.
Amongst the grass our small animals hide, dwarfed by the waist-high grass,
Further on our trees mark the home of monkeys, jumping between branches.
Insects buzz from flower to flower, landing on light feet amongst petals,
Our fingers trail amongst them, our conceptual bodies never truly touching.


We found a place for our minds amongst the clouds, surveying our world,
In every part of us we could sense the lives of those we'd created below,
In each one we were there too, in every animal, flower, plant and tree.
Your beauty was foam on the moving tide, colouring it the blue of your mind.
We scampered with the mice, climbed up high with the monkeys, jumping,
Our fins swished, propelling us on with the fish, past seaweed and coral.
We could see everything, from above and through the eyes of those below,
Our minds moved carefully, caring for the planet we'd made together,
Free from poverty, famine, war, pain and disease. A utopia, born in love.
With you here there was no tugging, nothing to lead me away from our world,
So here we stayed, dancing, running, playing behind our bodies closed eyelids.


On the other side everything was white, sterile, we lay apart now, unmoving,
Our bedclothes tucked tight around us, arms lay bare, wires running into us.
Beside the bed machines beeped, rhythmical, keeping us amongst the clouds.
A hand grasped the plug, grasped my life, gripped the cable tight and pulled.
In our shared world I vanished, left you alone, you searched, but found nothing,
Below our creations wilted, the sea dried and left the plants parched and dry,
Animals fell to the ground, starving and thin, ignored by you as you passed by.
The ones that remained watched in horror as your tears fell fast on their home,
Burning as they slipped from your skin and onto our world, fire giving it light.
You pause, resting as you sob, bathed in a golden glow, crackling beneath you,
Below our creations burned, smoke, thick and black, fills our sky, black not gold.

OhHaiThere

I felt like writing something, so like a sheep have wandered into the same field, so to speak, as, it turns out, at least 4 of my friends. Strange. Not really the point, though feeling a bit like a copy-cat has slightly quashed the inspiration, anyway, I wanted to write something creative buuuuuuut with a failing word processor who wants a code of some sort the internet can look after my writings instead.

It felt a bit weird writing a story or poem or something on a blogging site which is meant to be a diary without writing some sort of an introduction. I'm going to try reaaally hard to avoid making this into a) a whiny rambling post about depressing things or stereotypical 'they just don't understand me' rubbish, or b) a boring factfile which has quantifiable information.

I guess you do need a name though since my username means as little to you as putting nine-nine would do, it does have a meaning but it's pretty dumb. Anyway, my name's Robyn, this should hopefully explain the lack of an easy nickname since anything involving my name doesn't really work. You can't shorten it except to Rob and, being female, that'd be weird. I haven't really got any nicknames anyway, I think maybe kieran stole them seeing as he has more than he can count =P

Oh dear I think I'm rambling, I hate tangents, they sound stupid to read back. Well, maybe I just won't read it.

OK, I'm going to wrap this up, I'm addicted to this game so everyone should go play it like I'm going to =]